On this potent day of the New Moon in Leo🦁: how we can align with what is meant for us.

New chapters in life call for new books so I started a new journal, which has become a sacred ritual for me.

It also occurred to me that, at this pivotal time in my life, this will be my 10th journal, which in Tarot is seen as the end but also the beginning.

It seems that every book begins and closes a chapter in my life.

Each chapter is a transition into a new, uncertain path.

What can feel like a failure - I use that word intentionally because I’d like to shift the perception of that word to mean reconfiguration and re-calibration - is actually a stepping stone onto a new path.

A rebirth.

A new journey of rediscovering myself.

Blind spots can seem daunting but I feel grateful for the awareness it brings me.

I can make a new decision.

I can step forward, renewed.

The uncertainty that new awareness brings can be hard to hold but when we tune into our bodies and release the story and the wound that that story holds, we can connect to a sense of freedom.

Even joy.

Even awe at the serendipity of every step we took to get here.

To now.

To a new chapter.

To open a new book and start a fresh page.

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I have decided to cancel my Play as a Ritual series. This decision did not come easy but since the turnout has been low, and instead of working harder I am invited to step back and reassess what I would like to continue to offer.

I’ve been processing this moment with much tenderness.

I’m reminded that you can’t trust and have doubt; you must pick one.

So I exhale and lean into trust and grace, knowing that everything is happening for me in some divine and cosmic order that is beyond my mind’s ability to plan or strategize.

Grief has also come up to move the story forward. 

I am so grateful that I have a village that helps me to hold these very human emotions. 

Professionally, I have folks in my life who see me and want more of me, in fullness and honesty, offer what is needed because it comes from the depth of me - not just my strengths but my fears too. 

Play has been a gift for me. 

Creativity has brought me back to my body, helping me to be more aware and in right relationship with all parts of myself, my kin, my community, and the world that I inhabit.  

And yet there are important dots to connect here.

For me and those that resonate with my work. 

I’ll be taking the rest of August to tune in and get deep about what wants to be shared with this gorgeous community. 

In the meantime, I’m here for 1:1 private creativity, reiki + sound healing sessions and doors are still open for my Creative Embodiment Coaching. Apply here. 

May you see the colors of your “failures” and “disappointments” as vital parts of your exquisite rainbow. May you experience its medicine and know that everything is there for your highest good. 

In tenderness + awe,

Zhenia

If you’re feeling the push to move forward in your own journey but don’t know where to start, start with an intention.

And if you don’t have an intention, start with a visual image. You can make a physical collage (if that feels right for you); I made this one using Canva.

Either way, start with the call to do something different.

Journal about where your fears began and how you can hold them in a softer, more accepting way.

The New Moon in Leo is a powerful time to tune into where your inner sun wants you to shift and shine.

Maybe it’s making new contacts and connections or starting a new workout routine. Maybe you want to focus more on your professional career or your intimate relationship.

I want to work with my fears around money. I don’t want to be afraid of the opportunities that are meant for me anymore.

I’m starting with the belief that I can change this energetic relationship because it’s not just physical security that money is tied to.

It’s really everything.

I’m open to exploring and staying curious, taking judgement out of the equation and giving myself the time to notice my patterns and behaviours that center fear and uncertainty around what is, essentially, meant for me.

I invite you to reflect and get curious around where you might want to move forward.

Remember that where you focus your energy, things will grow.

In tenderness + awe,

Zhenia

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