Failure as an invitation to recalibrate: Self-discovery and awareness is there at every corner.

I’ve decided to move my newsletter to a new platform: Substack.

Coincidentally, I just started a new journal, which has become a sacred ritual for me.

It also occurred to me that, at this pivotal time in my life, this will be my 10th journal, which in Tarot is seen as the end but also the beginning.

It seems that every book begins and closes a chapter in my life.

Each chapter is a transition into a new, uncertain path.

What can feel like a failure - I use that word intentionally because I’d like to shift the perception of that word to mean reconfiguration and recalibration - is actually a stepping stone onto a new path.

A rebirth.

A new journey of rediscovering myself.

Blind spots can seem daunting but I feel grateful for the awareness it brings me.

I can make a new decision.

I can step forward, renewed.

The uncertainty that new awareness brings can be hard to hold but when we tune into our bodies and release the story and the wound that that story holds, we can connect to a sense of freedom.

Even joy.

Even awe at the serendipity of every step we took to get here.

To now.

To a new chapter.

To open a new book and start a fresh page.

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I have decided to cancel my Play as a Ritual series. This decision did not come easy but since the turnout has been low, and instead of working harder I am invited to step back and reassess this offering. 

I’ve been processing this moment with much tenderness.

I’m reminded that you can’t trust and have doubt; you must pick one.

So I exhale and lean into trust and grace, knowing that everything is happening in some divine and cosmic order that is beyond me and for me at the same time.

Grief has also come up to move the story forward. 

I am so grateful that I have a village that helps me to hold these very human emotions. 

Professionally, I have folks in my life who see me and want more of me, in fullness and honesty, offer what is needed because it comes from the depth of me - not just my strengths but my fears too. 

Play has been a gift for me. 

Creativity has brought me back to my body, helping me to be more aware and in right relationship with all parts of myself, my kin, my community, and the world that I inhabit.  

And yet there are important dots to connect here.

For me and those that resonate with my work. 

I’ll be taking the rest of August to tune in and get deep about what wants to be shared with this gorgeous community. 

In the meantime, I’m here for 1:1 private creativity, reiki + sound healing sessions and doors are still open for my Creative Embodiment Coaching. Apply here. 

May you see the colors of your “failures” and “disappointments” as vital parts of your exquisite rainbow. May you experience its medicine and know that everything is there for your highest good. 

In tenderness + awe,

Zhenia