The stories I am ready to release: a daily practice of letting go and stepping into my wholeness.

Solar Return Ascendant in Scorpio. That's what my astrologer and teacher, Mal Mathurin, told me when I reached out to her. Honestly, it had been a hard year, maybe two or three but it took her looking at my chart to really land. "This is a time of death for you and with death comes grief and release. Best thing you can do is just reflect and release".

Her words lingered in my head days after we spoke. Reflect and release.

I started Believe In Your Sacred five years ago coming up in July. I didn't really know what it was going to be but I wanted to write and share and be of service. It felt like a calling, a service that I was stepping into. Somehow service entangled with servitude; I was available for everything and everyone that had a need.

It became exhausting really quickly and I had to learn how to take care of myself. To pause and assess my own energy. To create boundaries. To feel the true intention of my work and not to fall into the pitfall of people pleasing, my habitual coping mechanism.

I'm still learning how to do all these things. I'm allowing my life to unfold as it needs to to teach me what I am here to learn in this moment, sure that there will be another lesson in the next.

So I started a daily practice of releasing stories into the ether. I speak them out loud, feeling the words leave my body. It is part storytelling, part prayer and part ritual. The practice is meant to be short yet powerful; it takes no more than 10 minutes. Presence and intention is all you need to set the wheels in motion.

Every morning, I ask myself the following questions to get to the essence of the story:

What is the story I am releasing?

What is the root of the story?

What void is asking to be filled?

I follow with a healing ritual. I raise my hands, palm facing me, and say the following invocation:

"By the power vested in me by the Creator, Spirit, and my guiding team, I allow these hands to cleanse any charge or stagnant energy in my body related to this story."

Then with gentle sweeping motions, I slowly move from my head down my feet while saying to myself "I am ready to release this story".

When I am finished, I lay my hands to the floor and ask Mother Earth to take this energy and transmute it so that I may be supported in releasing this story and stepping into the fullness of me.

I thank Mother Earth and put my hands in prayer position for a few moments to be present for the release.

I say three new affirmations related to this story. For example, on Day 1, I released the story of "I am not enough" which was deeply rooted in me feeling undeserving of love, attention and care. My new affirmations were:

I am deserving of love.

I am enough because I am alive.

Because I am love, I breath, live and share love.

To close the ceremony, I say the following surrender prayer by Tosha Silver:

"Divine Beloved, Allow me to give with complete ease and abundance,

Knowing that You are the Unlimited Source of all.

Let me be an easy, open conduit for Your prosperity.

Let me trust that all my own needs are always being met in amazing ways,

And that it's safe to give freely as my heart guides.

And equally, let me feel wildly open to receiving.

May I know my own value, beauty, and worthiness without questions.

Let me allow others the supreme pleasure of giving to me.

May I feel worthy to receive in every possible way.

Change me into one who can fully love, forgive and accept myself

So I can carry Your Light without restriction.

Let everything that needs to go, go.

Let everything that needs to come, come.

I am utterly Your own.

You are me, I am You. We are one.

All is well.

Amen."

Cover image by Sapan Patel.

Zhenia 🌻 Believe In Your Sacred

Creativity Doula+Coach * Intuitive Healer & Teacher * Storyteller

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